She Made Me A Grandma!

Yes, 12 years ago a tiny baby was born. She was just over 3 pounds. When I was 45 years old, this tiny person made me a grandma. I really had no idea I was going to be a grandma at such a young age, but she did it and she has been such a blessing.

Natasha is a very tenacious. She has been from the start. I love to be around her. She is a happy, talkative, creative, young lady.

She has been through a lot of challenges in her life. I hope she knows how loved she is, and how strong she is and that even though life is hard sometimes she has the ability to keep her chin up, to focus on the good, and the blessings in life. I hope she always does her best in all she does, and never lets disappointments or failure drag her down.

She is a wonderful gift from Father in Heaven to our family. I am so grateful she made me a grandma, even though I thought I was too young to be a grandma. She has taught me so about the love that exists in this crazy world. More love than I ever thought was possible.

Happy Birthday, Beautiful, Sweet Natasha! I love you!

She Really is a Dream Come True.

Today is Kelsey’s 30th Birthday.

It’s hard to believe.

I’ve talked about her birth and the great blessing she was to me. Today though I am reminded of the day I became her Mama. I grew up with 5 brothers, no sisters.

My first born was Riley whose bday was a couple of days ago. So hearing the news that our soon to be born baby was a girl was hard to believe. I am grateful for all the boys in my life and family, but it really made it hard for me to believe I was going to get to have a girl in my life, and especially in my family. I would get to see her, love her, dress her, do her hair, sew Easter dresses for her, and teach her all the fun girl things that I loved doing. At the birth of each of my little brothers, I prayed so hard for a little sister. I was blessed with these two little brothers who I wouldn’t trade.

So as the time got closer for Kelsey’s delivery, I got more and more excited! Until the day finally came, My Dream Come True was here!

She was perfect!

So many hopes and dreams wrapped up in a tiny little human. It has been such a blessing being her Mama. She really has been easy. She loved reading, still does. She would play in her room quietly for hours. Sometimes we’d have to ground her from her room, if she was ever in trouble, because she liked it there so much.

She was a good student. I never had to ask if she had homework, she just did it. She always wants to follow the rules. She wants everyone to follow the rules, and would give the other kids a hard time if they were not behaving.

So back to wanting a little sister- I have noticed through the years as Kelsey has grown up and I don’t have to parent her like I did when she was a child, that she has become like a little sister to some degree. She is really fun to tease, and she teases me too. She is fun to spend time with, shopping, binge watching shows, or just talking.

I’m so grateful for my little Dream Come True! The person she is as my beautiful daughter, and the fun to hang out with little sister too.

Oh, and by the way, she’s still pretty much perfect!

Tester Pancake/Most Improved

Today is my oldest son’s birthday.

He is 33 years old.

That means I was just a youngster when I became his mother. Not as young as some, but too young to really grasp what I was getting into. I tended children all through my teen years. I knew how to kiss boo-boo’s, and sing the clean up song. I knew how to change diapers and feed a baby. What I found out was that there is so much more to being a parent than just caring for a child.

When I held Riley for the first time, I couldn’t speak. I just looked at him. As tears filled my eyes and ran down my cheeks, I thanked God for the privilege of being his Mama. I remember thinking I don’t know how to do this, but I am excited and happy to try. I’ve never felt love like that -before that moment.

Within the first few weeks, I felt a little more confident, but really you never know what you’re doing. That’s what I think, and that’s how I felt. Riley’s dad and I mostly just did the best we could with the knowledge and experience we had.

Our baby Emily, has always referred to Riley as our “Tester Pancake“. In case you don’t know what that is, it’s the first pancake you make that usually turns out not the best. It may have a weird shape, or you make the mistake of turning it too soon. It might get burned because the pan is too hot, etc. We all laugh at the nick name, but it is true that we made mistakes with our first born. So. Many. If I think about it too long I get a little sad, but I feel peace when I think somehow he turned out great! In fact he is amazing!!

One day we were talking with our adult kids and Riley said he was such a good kid. He felt he had never given us any trouble, and was an easy child to raise. I think he actually said, “I’m probably your best kid!” We all laughed! Ummm. No! Then he followed it up with, “Well, I’m definitely your Most Improved Kid!”

That is a fact! When I think about all that he has experienced, some things I don’t even know about, but some I do, I am so proud of the man he has become. For him to be our first, our Tester Pancake, and turn out to be our Most Improved, it says a lot about him as a person. About his ability to bounce back after challenges, his desire to always improve, and the way he has figured out how best to go through this life and be a success.

I love you, Son. Thank you for your patience with your Mama, (and Daddy) and for always trying to do better! oxoxo

A New Granddaughter!

We have been blessed to be grandparents. I am so grateful to have little ones to love, and spoil, and then send them home.

Our sweet new granddaughter is here!

What a doll. She is so sweet and beautiful.

I truly believe the reason I love being a grandparent is because I was first a parent.

That may sound obvious, but it really is a “grand” plan. You become a parent, you love these children more than anything. It is the hardest thing you’ve ever done. They drive you nuts, they want/need something at the most inconvenient times. They challenge you. They make you proud.

They basically wear you out! They fill you will more love than you ever thought was possible. .

They grow up, and you’re amazed at all they accomplish in their lives, and the way they do it.

Then….you get to love their kids! And because they love their children more than anything else, you don’t have to worry about them. It’s the love and spending time without all the worry. As I say that I realize that’s not completely true. You do worry about them, but not as much as you did your own kids, because you know their parents will do most the worrying.

I am so grateful for this sweet, new little one to love. I’m so proud of her parents for being parents.

It really is a “grand” plan!

2018 Highlights Pt.2

August

We attended the 2018 Transplant Games of America in Salt Lake City. My parents look so cute in their shirts. My miracle brother, Keith received a liver transplant from a donor. It is a wonderful gift that made it possible for my brother to still be with us after 11 years.

We had our 33rd anniversary. Spent most of the day with our grandbaby, Willow. We went to Salt Lake City and walked around the Salt Lake Temple where we were married. And ended up in Park City where we had our honeymoon.

We stopped at a place I consider to be very peaceful and relaxing. It is the Glenwood Cemetery in Park City. We spent a little time there after we dropped Willow off to her Mama.

We went out to dinner, talked about the years we’ve been married, and set some goals, then went home.

It was a great day!

September

Our cute grandson started soccer. If you haven’t see 4 years olds play soccer, you need to. They are so cute and fun to watch!

Julian kept insisting the little blonde guy was a girl. He didn’t quite understand why he would have long hair.

My parents celebrated their 63rd anniversary. They are amazing. I’m so happy they’re here with us still and we enjoy our Sundays with them. They love each other more than ever.

November

Our oldest son and his wonderful wife announced that they were expecting a new baby in May of 2019. Yay!!!

Natasha spent the night and had some grandparent time with us. I don’t see her as much as I’d like, but we make the most of the time we have. She is such a wonderful, sweet, girl.

My best friend Lilli took me out to lunch for my bday. She is a gift. I am so blessed to have such a friend. Blog post coming on a future date.

December

We celebrated the Winter Solstice with our good friends Sydney and Chad, and their cute son, Parker, and our families! Dark days are hard, but more light is coming. I struggle a lot with the dark winter days, but knowing that brighter days are coming keeps me focused. Years ago, when I taught Parker in primary, I asked the kids what we celebrate during this time of year. I expected them to say, “Christmas!”. Parker said, “Well, you could celebrate the Winter Solstice.” I have celebrated the Winter Solstice every year since then. By the way Parker is 16 years old, now.

2018 was a great year!

2018 Highlights!

This past year has basically slipped by and I haven’t shared much. When I look back on the blog there isn’t much. So here is some highlights:

April-

Our oldest, Riley and his sweet wife, Janet and children were sealed for time and all eternity is the temple. What a blessing. To be in the temple with their little family as they were dressed in white making covenants, and knowing the promises of a forever family are real. It is by far one of the most precious and sacred experiences of my life. I love them, and I’m so proud of them!

A future so bright!!!

Families are Forever!

Our “Bonus Baby’s” baby Willow, turned “1”!!! What a sweet little dolly. We have enjoyed having our sweet grand baby in our lives, and we love her so much! Grand parenthood is the best!

May-

Our grandson Julian had a birthday!! This great kid is always keeping us entertained. He does an excellent job communicating what he thinks and asking us about the world. I sometimes have to steal hugs, but he is a very sweet and fun boy. We love him!

June-

Our family vacationed at Lava Hot Springs, Idaho. It was so fun to be together. The family went swimming in the huge swimming pool while I tended a napping grandbaby. We traveled to a ghost town, sort of, Chesterfield is a town that was founded back in the 1800’s. There has been families, descendants of the founders moving back and fixing up some of the old buildings. There was a super cute General Store. Riley and Brett tubed down the river. We hiked up to a metal effigy of Big Foot that was near our camp ground.

The down side? Allergies.

I enjoy being with family more than anything.

A Living, Breathing, Human Oxymoron.

Nifty plant outside Olive Garden.

Yes, that’s me. First of all, let me apologize for being MIA for the last almost six months. I’m doing much better. I am feeling “joyful.” Back when I was born, these amazing people, my parents, named me Joy. They said it was because they knew I was special, and because of that I needed a special name. You can read more about that by reading my post entitled Choosing Joy.

For sometime now I have had some trouble. Like my “Most Quoted” said many years ago when I was telling him he needed to do better, he said, “I’m trying really hard at life!”

That’s what I have been doing. Trying really hard at life, and sometimes that takes all you have. I have been appearing like a happy, joyful person, but not feeling like one. That’s what happens when your name is Joy, and you don’t feel joyful. Who I am is not what I am. You know like Civil War, Jumbo Shrimp, living dead, and so on. I am a living, breathing, human oxymoron.

Well at least I have been.

Now, I am feeling better, more joyful, more like my old self. One thing that seems to have helped is watching my food intake and limiting sugar and carbs. I’m so thankful I feel better.

I am ready to do more, to share more.

Life is tough, but it is also joyful, and wonderful. In fact it’s almost exactly great!

Sunday Best: So Thankful.

My darlin and I stayed home from church. We are both sick. I missed being at church.

I’ve been thinking today of all the many things I’m thankful for,

my health, and being sick (it reminds me how thankful I am when I’m healthy),

my sweet family-parents who are saints, siblings I can count on,

a most wonderful husband,

children who are responsible and loving,

sweet grandchildren I am so blessed to be able to see on a regular basis. they fill my heart with so much love. I am thankful for cousins, nieces, nephews, uncles, and aunts. So much awesome family!

I’m so thankful for a home, for wonderful neighbors, and a community that is full of goodness.

I’m thankful for freedom to worship God. I am so thankful that I can talk to Father In Heaven. He listens, and is aware of all of us. I know this, and I’m thankful for it.

Most especially I’m thankful for the Savior whose birth we celebrate this time of year. I believe He is who the scriptures tell us He is, the Son of God-Born to Mary as a sweet tiny baby. He condescended to come to earth, He gave us His gospel, and an example to follow of how to live it. He taught us what to do in challenging times through parables. He healed the sick. He blessed others and asked us to do the same. He atoned for our sins, so we can repent and do better, and have a chance of getting back to Father. Without Him all is lost. With Him, there is hope, there is Grace, there is Love. I am so thankful for Him.

This year, I know many people who are struggling. They have lost someone they love, or they feel they can’t go on. Our Savior can help them too. He knows all the feelings of a sad heart, and He knows how to heal it. We can trust Him. I’m so thankful we can trust Him to carry us when we struggle.

I will remember Him this Christmas season. I will remember my blessings, and be thankful.

Not Very Amusing, Or Is It?

In our part of the world we have a popular amusement park. It is the closest thing Utah has to Disneyland. It’s called Lagoon!

We went every year when I was growing up. The park would send discount tickets to our church, and we’d get to go and save a little money. The day was called Stake Lagoon Day.

Some families had lots of kids, like ours, so getting a discount for admission was a big deal, and it was expensive enough that most families only took their kids once a year. At least I thought that, it might not even be true, I know we only went once a year. Anyway, I loved this event, and looked forward to it for most of the summer. I couldn’t wait to ride the scariest rides. Or see how many times I could go on the fast ones. I have such good memories of summer trips to Lagoon.

Our family would pile in the car with a picnic and make our way to the park. It was about a half an hour from our house in the car. Once there, we’d put all the needed items for the picnic in the wagon and enter the park. After purchasing our tickets, and going through the gate we’d all walk to the rear of the park where there were many small grassy areas to set up a picnic. Some areas had only grass to put a blanket on and some had picnic tables. We’d always pick what we thought would be the best spot. When we were little, one of our parents took us around to the rides while the other stayed with our food, wagon and blankets. It was a kind of Home-base where we could leave things like prizes or jackets or treats to be looked after by Mom. As we got older the same routine happened except once at the picnic area, Dad would give us instructions for who could go where, always using the buddy system, then send us out into the park for a period of time and telling us to come back to eat at an appointed time. He always left the park for a little trip to go get fried chicken at KFC or the local grocery store. What fun memories!

I worked there one summer right after high school. It was a fun job, because I could stay after work and ride the rides. I could go on my day off and ride, all at no cost, because I worked there. It was so great!

Then something happened. I started not feeling very well after I rode the rides. What seemed to be a headachy feeling turned into a queasiness. Oh no, you guessed it. I was getting older, and what I remember happening to my dad, and other older people was now happening to me. One of my favorite summer activities was not going to be fun anymore. Bummer!

It worked out though.

Here’s why, by the time I wasn’t enjoying myself much on the rides, I had become a Mama of my own kids. The first time I saw my little boy Riley on

Bulgy the Whale, tears came to my eyes.
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to see his happiness, his complete joy at what he was experiencing was sooo much better to me than the experience of riding the rides myself.

Being a parent and watching my children experience life, especially the good things in life is the best! It makes me think about Father in Heaven and how He must feel when He watches us enjoying this life experience. What a blessing it is that God has allowed us to experience in some small way what I’m sure makes Him happy, watching His children loving life. When our kids are happy and loving life that gives us the same joy.

So Emily, my “Bonus Baby” went to Lagoon with Kelsey, my “Dream Come True” recently, and when they were riding on one of the fast rides Emily passed out, and her head whipped around and hit Kelsey in the face. The back of Emily’s head hit Kelsey’s cheek to be exact. Kelsey got a bruise, and Emily got a concussion. They laughed a little right after, but they were both really sore. Emily was sad because she said she doesn’t enjoy the rides like she used to when she was little, or young. It has already changed for her. I told her, “Just wait till your sweet tiny girl is a little bigger, and she can go on Bulgy the Whale.” Then I shared with her the secret about being a parent and watching your children experience true happiness!

Slower and Steadier…or “Just Keep Swimming” …Some More!

Many years ago in the first few years of having a blog, I wrote a post about

“Slow and Steady.”

I shared the story of our son encouraging me in a overwhelmed moment to remember the story of the Tortoise and the Hare. He said, “Mom remember, slow and steady wins the race.” Trying to encourage me, he was letting me know that is is better to just move steady in the direction you want to go. Slow and steady progress is better that going so fast that you have to stop and rest because you’ve worn yourself out. Awesome advice!

I still think about that experience often and I’m grateful for that cute little guy who reminded me. I seem to have been slower and steadier, lately than I like. I am doing my best to

“just keep swimming”

like Dory. So much of the things I am accomplishing are taking all I have to give. I haven’t had much energy left to blog, or even share my thoughts much.

Honestly, I feel like I’ve done the whole blog thing wrong. I don’t have a clue if anyone reads what I write and don’t really know how to make things better. I keep reminding myself, that even if no one reads the blog, my family will someday be glad I wrote some things down. I know I still have things to say, I’m just trying to get back in the swing and start writing.

One thought that crossed my mind is that next year is the tenth blogiversary. I may just put a big effort in until then and be done. We’ll see. So my goal is to: write, and do better at getting on here consistently.